WHY
Why is it that I can't be friends with anybody?? Meg, Nadia, Carmen.. Fuck, everyone. I want to leave. I want to leave. I want to leave. I have no friends. I want to leave.
I'm seriously contemplating it. I feel so damn isolated. I am so damn isolated.
I am slowly retracting myself from everything, I hate doing shit all, I hate having no friends.
I was feeling SO GOOD in my garden today. Listening to music, not worrying. I hate school. I hate school SO MUCH. I hate the pressure, the pressure is killing me. Actually killing me. I feel so god damn out of place. I feel so god damn not part of anything. I am so alone.
I want newness. I don't want people to remember me for who I have established myself as in this school. I want new people, new environment, new everything! I hate how Meg went with her friends that I couldve been friends with if she hadn't been there, and same with Carmen and her friends, who I couldve been friends with if she hadn't been there.
What the fuck did I do to deserve this?
